Week 19-Numb

Well we had a break this week.  I had been doing well keeping up on everything. I really love doing all the assignments.  I look forward to reading most days.  Very grateful for this weekend being off from the webinar.  I have had a very difficult several days. Thursday night was a nightmare ending in the ER once again with my son.  Nobody should ever have to deal with this in their lives.  I have tried to put the lessons we have done in my brain, especially the obstacles continue to show until you have learnt from them.  I’m tired of this obstacle.

So the last few days Scroll V is the hardest thing to read.  Obituaries I can’t read right now. Almost having to actually write one, I can’t deal with reading any.

Looking on to MK 19, I read it today. First paragraph: Fear is a powerful form of thought.  It paralyzes the nerve centers, thus affecting the circulation of the blood.  This, in turn, paralyzes the muscular system, so that fear affects the entire being, body, brain and nerve, physical, mental and muscular.  ME!!ME!!! ME!!! right now.

My brain is fogged. Memory shot, I hurt and tired.  WOW!!!! It is so debilitating.  I’m desperately trying to regroup but it is slow.  I am so grateful for the doctors, nurses, police that aided us. I truly believe someone is looking out for my son. One line in Og stood out today when I read,” Why have I been allowed to live this extra day when others far better than I have departed?” My son’s mission here is not done and for that I am truly thankful.

My virtue this week in imagination.  So I looked it up. One definition was:  the ability to deal resourcefully with unexpected or unusual problems, circumstances, etc.  Guess the universal know where I need to be before I did.

Have a wonderful week. Hug your children if you have them.

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Carole

13 thoughts on “Week 19-Numb

  1. Carole, Power feelings behind the words and experiences you went through. Yet you moved on and do your work and continue to Love you son and be grateful for those in assistance to you. I see this class as an aid to our life, not our life. Life is happening all around us causing us many emotions and thoughts from everywhere. All the years of not watching who/what enters our mind has caused us to be weaker than we should be. I hear the “I’m worn out and tired” – but I also heard a Powerful woman take care of business in a Loving way – and carry on in life with a Superb Purpose and a most definite Cause. Also I felt the harmony of the events came unexpectedly to you. I do not find that strange any more.
    I’m Happy most that you son is OK and alive. I’ve got a child and 2 grand kids that I hugged for you. They are still looking at me funny.

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  2. Went to pick my son up at College last Monday because he called to tell me he was really sick. Thank goodness that this time we did not end up in the hospital. I know that feeling. Our hospital visit lasted a few days. Even when they are home and have the clean bill of health, you still feel like you are walking on eggshells. Here is hoping that times will be better.

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  3. Oh my Carole, this sounds like a very rough stretch. I’m sorry you are having to go through it, but grateful that you are doing it with such resolve and sharing the story with us. I couldn’t help noticing that even with all this going on, you still put together a better looking post than mine ever is. Good for you, and please know that prayers for strength and clear thinking are headed your way.

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  4. I so hear what you are saying.. and I’m so sad to hear that you almost lost your son.. amazing the willpower you have to pull all of this through.. remember to celebrate that within you.. most people would have given up with what you are going through.. so keep on going even though you might feel you are coming nowhere..

    And yes it is funny how the words we ranked several weeks ago, how they tent to fit so exact..
    The universe knows what it is doing, even though it most of the time might not feel like it..
    So we just have to learn to trust it..
    Peace be the journey..

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  5. What a week you have had! You are such a strong woman. Them dragons are huge and breathing fire and they haven’t burnt you down and incinerated you! Sending you and your son much love from my newly opened even bigger heart!

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