Week 22- Silence is golden

So we enter into week 22 and also a break week.  Still can’t believe this has gone by so quickly.   I loved the webinar this week, telling us that all those feelings are comfort.  This class has really stretched my mind and the way I have been thinking.  It’s loads of work but so worth. As we went over the grist idea again and I realized maybe my sons are the grist stones. Smoothing out my thoughts, softening and more importantly letting go of control.

The rest of the webinar was silence and how we need to find our self.  We that was another brick wall to breakthrough.  Hitting a lot of those in this class, but instead of totally stressing over it, I start laughing. At first, I thought it would be a couple of hours but when they said several days.  I thought okay those guys lost their marbles. It took the rest of the webinar and masterminding to see where they were coming from. I am sure I was not alone in my thinking, ” How the @#$@@ am I going to do that.” 15 minute sits are still an issue for me. So today was my day off and I didn’t have the whole day to try this out but I did stay off electronics for several hours, no TV, no music.  I did do some cleaning but kept quiet. I know that is totally right, but it’s a start.

Glad for the change in Og. Scroll V was a struggle especially due to the incidents that occurred in February. I am very grateful for life more everyday. Trying to find the happiness in each minute. So Scroll VI is we are the masters of our emotions.  So I can now see where this extended silence is going to come into play.  MK 22 is more understandable to me then the last two. I will enjoy the deeper meaning as the week progresses.

Here’s to a great week.  Looking forward to reading others blogs and there progress of silence is golden.

Hugs to all,



WEEK 21-Constantly learning

This week brings me here with a lot of gratitude.  I was blessed to find a couple of webinars online with wonderful information on health and also on addiction.   As I have said part of my DMP is giving back and addiction is near and dear to me.  So I began watching videos talking about array of things, from diet to pep tides. it was an eye opener and because of MKMMA I was able to get more out of it, learning how the mind works in our class and relating .  Some interviews blew my mind.

I also learnt that diet can play a huge part in how your brain works. All where talking about how habits and poor thoughts in combination with bad eating effects our mental health. They gave me great tips on changing my diet, thus adding in my health physically and mentally.

As I read 21 this week a couple keep sticking out 21:13 ” This mental attitude is our personality and is composed of the thoughts which we have been creating in our own mind; therefore, if we wish a change in conditions all  that is necessary is to change our thought; this in turn change our mental attitude, which will in turn change our personality, which will change the persons, things and conditions, or the experiences with which we meet in life.”

21:17 “Do not hesitate to aspire to the highest possible attainments in anything you may undertake, for the mind forces are ever ready to lend themselves to a purposeful will in the effort to crystallize its highest aspirations into acts, accomplishments, and events.”

We can truly  change our lives and become the best possible selves. I am so excited to see how the next weeks unfold.



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Have a wonderful week everyone.



WEEK 20-Growth in action

So hear we are at week 20.  Loved the webinar this week.  I always miss them but I guess I better get  use to that in a few weeks.  The new dash card as I call it, is powerful.  I have always had a problem with death as most do I would assume.  I know that it is part of life but I usually don’t think as much about as we are in the present with Scroll V, the assignments and now the card. Sitting back and thinking why do I feel so strange when when I see that word.  Association of death is in most a bad thing, something we are losing.  It can be a good thing too, like extra pounds, bad habit.  So again we are re training the subby to think differently.

This past week I have had a hard time keeping up to my promises. I recently emailed a friend for advise on an idea and did not get the response I had hoped for.  I thought they were a little more open but I was wrong which hurt.  So looking for others and avenues to find what I was seeking I came across a conference that is totally free and videos that were done so that you can do them on your time.  The catch is 5  are only available for 24 hrs.  So some of my focus has been the last couple of days on this.  FINALLY!!!! Someone who gets what I was feeling and thinking.  OF course it is part of my DMP, so this is exciting to me and fell into my lap suddenly.  I guess I shouldn’t be surprised ( Law Of Growth).This week I am growing in ways I want.  Sits are still hard but working on it. When I master them, the growth will be crazy.

MK chapter 20 is slowly sinking in.  I missed a day, so I will hopefully get it by weeks end. The power is within to do it.

So today finds me grateful for the new information, the answer that upset me made me search more and opened my mind to be willing to receive. My old me would have just stayed mad and given up and defeated.  My new me is shining through.


Hope everyone is having a wonderful week.



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Week 19-Numb

Well we had a break this week.  I had been doing well keeping up on everything. I really love doing all the assignments.  I look forward to reading most days.  Very grateful for this weekend being off from the webinar.  I have had a very difficult several days. Thursday night was a nightmare ending in the ER once again with my son.  Nobody should ever have to deal with this in their lives.  I have tried to put the lessons we have done in my brain, especially the obstacles continue to show until you have learnt from them.  I’m tired of this obstacle.

So the last few days Scroll V is the hardest thing to read.  Obituaries I can’t read right now. Almost having to actually write one, I can’t deal with reading any.

Looking on to MK 19, I read it today. First paragraph: Fear is a powerful form of thought.  It paralyzes the nerve centers, thus affecting the circulation of the blood.  This, in turn, paralyzes the muscular system, so that fear affects the entire being, body, brain and nerve, physical, mental and muscular.  ME!!ME!!! ME!!! right now.

My brain is fogged. Memory shot, I hurt and tired.  WOW!!!! It is so debilitating.  I’m desperately trying to regroup but it is slow.  I am so grateful for the doctors, nurses, police that aided us. I truly believe someone is looking out for my son. One line in Og stood out today when I read,” Why have I been allowed to live this extra day when others far better than I have departed?” My son’s mission here is not done and for that I am truly thankful.

My virtue this week in imagination.  So I looked it up. One definition was:  the ability to deal resourcefully with unexpected or unusual problems, circumstances, etc.  Guess the universal know where I need to be before I did.

Have a wonderful week. Hug your children if you have them.

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Week 18-Is it a break week or Giddy-up

Wow!!! what a week it has been. Snow started last week and I ended in warm sunny Florida.  It kind of reminds me of my journey here with this MKMMA class.

September 2015, I got on a phone call with a friend talking business and he told me about this class.  It was like a prayer was answered.  Diving in with both feet scared to death after the first week, thinking what did I just get into.  As the weeks progressed amazing things began to happen and obstacles (YEAH).  So here we are at week 18 and four months into this amazing journey, happier, more confidence, minimal fears(still working on that one), looks like my past week. Walking in a world of blinded by a blizzard of life and ending with warm and tranquil breezes and peace. Mark and Davene got it right to get out the cold weather. Reading under a palm tree is so much nicer.

This weekend we took a mini vacation to a college in Florida with my daughter.  She has decided to go their but the had a “scholars weekend” so she could spend time on campus as if she was a student.  She had a wonderful time and met several girls.  One as soon as she arrived, it was like they were two sister separated a birth. Likes, dislikes, it was crazy.  We met her mom who had traveled with her from California.  We connected quickly also. After the weekend my daughter said I’m am 110% in and I knew that was going to happen.  I fell in love with the school as well. This brings me to my DMP knowing she will be exactly 1,076 miles away from me makes me more determined then ever to see it through. I have had the amazing pleasure to not only have a daughter, but a best friend too.  She has taught me so much and is becoming an incredible young woman. She is watching me taking this class and applying it to her life as well. Thank goodness for this class, she is learning much sooner to follow her bliss.

So it’s the beginning of the month so we change to the next Scroll.  Some how I look forward to the change but miss the old one. So this morning I read Scroll V for the first time. Loving the questions. As we know birth and death come to us all. What we do in the middle is what counts, yet we all forget that.  We go living day to day and only when something bad happens do we reflect. This Scroll is certainly going to lay an impact on me.

This week is it a break or a giddy up one?  It’s a giddy up week for me.  Missing some readings while away but doing my best to get most of it in.  This week’s webinar reminded me that I haven’t been able to get all 5 in everyday.  The sits are the hardest.  My mind is always wandering. So I guess I avoid them thinking I am going to think of the wrong things, when I am actually thinking of the wrong things not in the sit.  So my determination this week is to get all 5 in EVERYDAY.

Thank you to all that follow me and encouraging me with your wonderful comments.  I am so grateful for each and everyone of you.

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Week 17A- Re living the past

What a wonderful week we are embarking on.  The webinar this week was wonderful.  Finally seeing things falling into place.  I have been pretty good at keeping up with our assignments.  My favorite is blogging.  I know some do not feel like doing it but I really get a lot out of writing and reading others blogs.  What wonderful people we have in this group. So much to share and learn from each other.

I was watching a video blog from my friend Don Grantham.  If you haven’t seen them please check his blogs out.  Wonderful stuff and he will make you smile too. Anyway he said we have been doing this for FOUR MONTHS.   WOW!!!!! I didn’t even realize it.  I was not paying attention as to how much time has past.  It feels like yesterday we just started.

So we are reliving or should I say relearning some of the MK lessons this week.  I actually thought about going backwards and re-reading so this week is giving just that.

Today lesson 9.  I love the sit in this one.  I could actually do this on and get it.  Sits are still a struggle for me. My mind is always wondering to things I need to do or should do.  I have some days the sit goes so fast that I can’t believe its over.  The best sit are in my car at lunch time. Nobody to bother me.  It’s wonderful.  Unfortunately winter finally decided it wanted to come to NJ so there are days it’s just too cold for that.

Progress is slow but I’m moving forward.  I know there is a great breakthrough coming since the same obstacles keep showing up.  I take that to my sits sometime too.  I know I apparently have not learnt what I needed for them to go away. UGH!!!!

Love our new card, What am I pretending not to know? Hmm…. Not really sure how to answer this one.  Maybe by weeks end I will have something.

Busy week, heading to see the college my daughter is going to next year in Florida.  Oh darn some place warm and sunny.  I guess I will have to suffer through it.  HeHe!!!! Hope the weather on the east coast is calmer this week and if it has a need to snow, please let me be stranded in Tampa.

Have a wonderful week my friends. May kindness and love be with you everyday.



Week 17-Permission

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I loved last week’s Kindness.  How much fun was it to see how kind the world truly is if we just really open our eyes.  The masterminding was incredible in the alliances.  It blows my mind what a group of like minded people can do.  Hopefully everyone continues to add kindnesses into the alliance. Love to see what we can do by the end of this class.

Not much in the way of progress this week.  I guess that is good in a way.  Continue to dig deep into the assignments.

Having a little difficulty with my DMP.  I have not been feeling part of it lately. I haven’t reached out to my guide. I didn’t get much feed back the last time I tried.  So working on it myself and a friend is helping me try to focus on the problem.  Will use the sits to look for clarity.

MK 17 is not sinking in as fast as I would like but distracted a bit mentally with some health issue.

So I am giving myself permission to give myself a break.  Doing the work the meaning will come.  Loving the giving of permission to ourselves.  When I thinking about it sometimes brings tears to my eyes that I am allowed to have courage and abundance in my life.  I am natures greatest miracle.

Will continue to work hard this week.  Love this class.  I cannot say that enough.

Until next week.

Hugs to all.


Week 16- Kindness

I have to say I have been loving all the cards we are making and flashing.  It reminds me that there is so much good out in the world, yet we all focus on the bad.  All that programming and habits we acquire as we grow up, we start to forget how to live happily.

I have be doing my best with all the tasks required for our class. I do 95% of them everyday. So of the POA I am still lax on.  I will get there.  I don’t bet myself up because its taken a long time to put the cement on, be a little patient with myself if all are not done.

So kindness is what we are looking at this week.  How much fun is this?  I feel like I am smiling all the time. Our MKMMA is knocking this out of the part.  Mark should be eating soon at the rate we are going.  I love reading and commenting on them.  I add several myself everyday.

Last night when I was watching TV, I even more aware of kindness in shows and movies. I love that this class has made me more aware of the world we live in.  I love seeing the shift in the environment in my home too. Giving examples to my kids and reinforcing them to be grateful for what they have.

So I will end this blog with a line from one of my favorite movies “Cinderella” the live version of 2015. Cinderella’s mother on her death bed told her daughter  to remember to “Have courage and be kind.” Good sound advice.

So have a wonderful week of kindness. Love to all.

Week 15- I am nature’s miracle

What a perfect scroll to go into at the beginning of a new year.  I sat down to read it early on New Year’s day.  It was absolutely mind blowing.  New Years always signified a new start to make this year better than the last.  I have to say that has not been the case in the last several years for me but I got through it and got to the next year and hoped for the best.

Og states”I have been given eyes to see and a mind to think and now I know a great secret of life for I perceive, at last, that all my problems, discouragements, and heartaches are, in truth, great opportunities in disguise. I will no longer be fooled by the garments they wear for mine eyes are open.”  BAM!!!!! there it is.  I have been hit with all of this to learn and grow.  Not until this class opening my eyes had I truly believed that statement. Everything that has happened up to this point in my life has been leading me here.  Right now!!!!

In MK 14-30″ Your world without will be a reflection of your world within.” Crap did I make all of this mess?Did all my negative thinking fuel what has happened in my life? KARMA.

So we are in week 15, man, I have made it this far.  I am awesome.  I have usually quit by now, not this time.  This has been such a life changing experience for me.  I know I am a better person then I was 15 weeks ago and I can wait to see what is  in store.  Sure it’s been work, the old blueprint saying oh just skip it and realizing it and not skipping even over the holidays I only missed one or two readings.  YEAH ME!!! I’m doing it. All hard times with my kids, I got through it and talked to them.  They are trying to change too. We all are because I am changing and my environment has to change.  So the next obstacle, I guarantee is going to come, I will look at it as an opportunity to grow.

Hope everyone’s holidays were amazing.  I actually enjoyed them for the first time in many years. Let’s make 2016 an amazing year.

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Love to all,


Week 14- Movie time

Fun assignment this week on our break week.  I have been really busy with the holidays yet I have not let the time off derail me.  Doing my best keeping up with readings, sits and blogs.  I am very proud of myself that I have done it.  Nighttime reads are the hardest  during this last week, but I am doing them. That gal in the glass is smiling back.

So I have only squeezed in one movie this week.  I have seen many of them in the past.  I watched Cool Running.   I admit I have seen this many years ago, yet it had a whole different meaning this time. While watching and looking more deeply many things came up that were amazing.

There DMP was pretty evident 4 men from an island country competing for a winter sport in the Olympics.  Through their journey many things happen.  Love the Mirror scene.  Reminds me of the gal in the glass and our 50 minutes in front of the mirror.  Extremely powerful for one of the guys later in the movie. I will not spoil it. I also love  when Derice uses pictures to image the track, looking and feeling it with his body. Reminds me of all our shapes around our house, touching and feeling the shape. Love it.

A Quote I loved but I am not sure I got it down completely. A gold medal is wonderful thing but if you are not enough without it, you are not enough with it.  I clearly says to me we have to be enough even if we don’t have something.  Having that gold medal is wonderful but it will not make us happy if you are not enough to ourselves.

This is a definite watch.  Wonderfully funny. The kids will love it.

Excited about 2016. No resolutions this year. I am evolving into my future me.  A work in progress.  I cannot wait for next year and come back to read these blogs to see how far I have come.

Love to all my MKMMA family.  May 2016 bring a new you.


Bring on 2016!!!!!!