This past week has by far been the most difficult one of all the weeks in class. I feel that I had let the anger and negativity win.
In scroll III Og states” Henceforth I recognize that each day I am tested by life in like manner. If I persist, if I continue to try, if I continue to charge forward, I succeed.” This week, this held true. Being tested daily by one of my children. I would feel the anger and rage every time they entered the room. Almost like the guard at the gatehouse was protecting me subby from the old blueprint. I hated feeling this way, but as soon as the guard looked away the sword swung again.
Thank goodness for the webinar this week. THANK You to Mark for helping me see things differently. To remember to Love. So after the webinar I decided enough of this crap. I sat my son down and asked what is going on. Why do you feel that this is OK? He explained that he was stressed about a number of things and that he was sorry that he hurt me so much. BAM!!!!
My favorite line from Scroll II that I brought over was,”From this moment all hate has let my veins for I have not time to hate, only time to love.” This instantly came in my head as he spoke to me.
In Master Key in thirteen #15 writes”It will be found that the creative power of thought will explain every possible condition or experience, whether physical mental or spiritual. and #16 ” Thought will bring about conditions in correspondence with the predominant mental attitude. Therefore, if we fear disaster, as fear is a powerful form of thought disaster will be the certain result of our thinking. It is this form of thought which frequently sweeps away the result of many years of toil and effort.”
This is my old blueprint is me fighting again. Trying to take over and kill my future.
These next two weeks I am digging in hard. I am going into the New Year making a NEW ME!!!!!
I deserve to be happy. I am whole, perfect, strong,powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.
So as we go into this wonderful holiday, I am going to be grateful for my family, friends, and this class. If something gets in my way, I am going to yell BEAR HUG KETTLE!!!!! and remember what is most important.
I love you all. Merry Christmas, may your blessing be many.